Are You Cat or Kieron?

To: "Kieran J"
Hi Cat,
you're alive after all then??
you can get alex on 0044 07957 9XXX12 or email him at alexfhp @ XX XX XX.com hope you are ok, whats your news? mark

From: "Kieran J"
To: "Iron Man Records"
Sent: Saturday, January 14, 2006 4:52 PM
Subject: Re: ***SPAM*** allo
dude i emailed you like 6 months ago and all i got in response was emails to join the iron man records list. did you get my last email? when'r you gonna send me an autographed copy of yr latest record? Cat

To: "Kieran J"
Sent: Sunday, February 19, 2006 7:31 PM
Subject: Re: ***SPAM*** allo
You turnip, i get so many emails i can't spot CAT in amongst XX XXX @ XX XX so i've saved you as CAT now so i might actually spot your emails next time mark

From: "Kieran J"
To: "Iron Man Records"
Sent: Sunday, February 26, 2006 4:54 PM
Subject: Re: allo
hey mark
I've been up to alot the last couple of years. I guess the biggest thing is that about 18 months ago I finally faced up to alot of the discomfortand alienation i've felt with my body and my presentation as female to the world and started the process of transitioning in order to pass as male. Looking back, I know that i never felt comfortable with the person i was in England or how i was seen (as a woman) by others. Without any kind of understanding of what it means to be transsexual (that is, to know that the gender I am is not the one I was labelled as at birth or throughout most of my early life), I didn't really know what to make of the discomfort i felt. Starting to medically transition (by taking testosterone) and being able to present as male in the world has made me feel more comfortable with mybody and my presence in the world than I ever was in England. I've been depressed all the time you've known me, and right now, for the first time in a really, really long time i'm able to feel really good about my life and myself.I would appreciate it if you, as my friend, were able to understand that me transitioning has been one of the best decisions i've made in years,and that you are happy to keep up a friendship with the person i am now, a(flamingly gay) guy. I know this is going to be alot for you to take in. I'm open to questions but I am unlikely to feel comfortable with questions about what my body looks like now. If any other questions make me feel uncomfortable i'll make that clear to you and maybe suggest places where you're able to find out more information about the process oftransitioning. I also go by the name Kieran now. Again, hope this finds you well Kieran